Post Mother's Day Thoughts

I often find it necessary to put on my 'game face'.  I know there is someone reading this right now who knows exactly what I'm saying. As Alzheimer's disease progresses, it can become almost unbearable at times to witness what it is doing to my mom. I understand that no two people will experience life the same. That is why it is hard at times to imagine that anyone really understands what our family is going through. 

However, since there are over 47 million people worldwide who are living with Alzheimer's, I am certain there are others who can relate to what I am saying. Sometimes I want to crawl into a hole when I get "the question." You know the question: "How is your mom?" There's just no good way to answer that. As Mother's Day came and went, I was asked that question by some very kind and loving friends. Sometimes I want to scream out that she is NOT okay. I usually just reply that she is the same, and then I scramble to avoid the pain that often sets in after that question. How is mom doing?... hmmmm. That's a loaded question. 

I have learned that as her disease progresses, so too does my relationship with her. I know that I have gained more patience, and my love for her changes and grows as it has from the day I was born. When I visit her, I never know what 'mom' will show up for the visit. I take whatever connection I can make, if any.

Today I am more dedicated than ever to do what I can to raise awareness and funds for the Alzheimer's Association. In just one month, The Longest Day is a fund raising event held on the summer solstice. This is the longest day of the year, and this event symbolizes the long journey that those with Alzheimer's and their caregivers face. Join me in participating in this event. Together we can make a difference in the lives of so many affected by this disease.